let it roll

time will do it anyways
move with it
 or move out of it
recall the eternal key
harinam will set you free

let me say this

plainly or sweetly or with suave
love is for what we long
treasures heap upon the shores
of inspiration
dedicated to the breeze
of the destination
i am headed on
like a lover this journey calls
free us from
the misconception
that we have arrived
we have only just begun our stride

therefore i am Yours

in  constant debt of gratitude
a joy beyond recompence
with eyes awakened by
Your light
obvious now
are all things
illuminated with
Truth proper
You are everything
everything is You

holding on

slow or sluggish
still or dead
keep me focused
on whats ahead

Surya Namascar ki jai!

help me maintain these exersices
they work wonders

weathering it out is part of the journey

as the rain pours down  in the morning cold
grateful to have a dry warm home
allowed to think of higher things
of opportunities to hear Your pastimes
to breath Your air
the rare and purified atmosphere
of love , of trust , of wisdom

hope is a navigational tool

direct y0ur spirit
to what is worthy
go back to significance
go back to the lecture of Sri Guru
waking from the dream

Lord Shiva is the Holder of Gifts for the Journey

to the souls who would like to wake up
to the ones who wish to know what is real
to Vaishnavas who journey to the plane of devotion
beyond this trimodial vortex
 to distinquish  what is what
giving revelation to our real need
the one that brings lasting joy
the dedication to  the will of the Supreme
he fascilitates that Truth

life is a fog usually

can't see too far ahead
but what is within
is the tuning
or the not so tuning
train your mind
to relish
the opportunity
to chant the holy name
and syncronize
to the big picture
the will of the Divine
and the journey
will meet success

get me a pistol

get me a gun
but whats the use
whats begun is begun
how do i this motion stop
trust the Lord
has already designed a way out

think i know?

i'll tell you what i think
summer's over its always too brief
winter's coming along with the cold
time's movin fast
the bodies all grow old
thank God for the mercy He bestows
the soul is eternal
i declare this bold

night time walking through the scene that is no more

breathing the cold night air
i see i was never meant to be there
just a spring board to my own inner direction
the outer world has moved on
conservative and bland
where are the sparks that
make this world grand?

full as ever abundant still
pouring over
they overfill
but you must  go within
thus life shall begin
pierce through the veneer so thin

the magic season is back, kartik is here in the west- it coinsides with the falling of stars in heaps ,

wind tossing clouds and gold blazing on the trees= total beauty

focused and clear

it must be a dream
the Lord's blessings
always better that it seems
try to penetrate into the guidance
every desire fullfilled beyond our scemes
thats how we float on heavens bright beams

too tired to be concious

its the end  of the day
the night is well on its way
the moon is high
and full in the sky
the stars still shine on
as the eye lids close
its a matter of speaking
to reveal whats fortold
rest it comes to sooth the soul
dreams they come
for your mystery school to enroll
nectar flows from a hidden lake
when your soul begins to awake

a way home

in an existance of infinite manifesting and unmanifesting universes
of planets and galaxies never heard
allow the heart to sense its direction
remind me how to approach
Your divine mercy sector
my desire is to worship
Your infinite miraculous pastimes
s.o.s.

forthcoming

let the inside come out
reveal the contents
let the pageantry begin
let the petals unfurl
the wealth of nations
rests closely by
although young and unknowing
rich and overflowing

relationship reveals everything

the compassion the Lord has for the devotee
is the birth of all that is fascinating, beautiful and
wisdom imparting while displaying the
 unprecedented guardianship of the Divine

break through

you're close
paint

utility of the most precious gift

To understand a sophisticated and desirable acquisition takes knowledge.
From a deeper comprehension of this human  life we have recieved and its miraculous existance-
gratitude is born.Now begin again the utility of the opportunity given to us by the spiritual Master who gives us the process of awakening to Reality of devotion to the infinite Lord,
and make use of this precious opportunity of which  the gods await.

when heaven arrives remember its a step

the source of beauty
mercy and compassion
blesses us every moment
folded hands and heart
crystal tears and roses
offered to Your divine lotus feet

every day of my existance

tell the little urchins of doubt

their master is gone
the guardian has taken
it away
love is the essence
of all that lives
and love shall have Her way
for Her Lord has begun His Day
worship Radhika and Madhava without delay

a bird

flew in the subconcious  almost about to appear
bring me the message you wish me to hear
any scribble you can do
gets you closer than you ever knew
 a pad of paper your closest friend
a pencil sharp then a new message will send

breaking through the nescience

falling forward on the elevator
sinking in the swamps
tumbling through the corridors of  not
there ain't an explanation
coming through
just you reaching fast to find the glue
some adhesion to stick it togather
till you get through

Point me- place me in the right direction

steadfast make my eyes
cleanse my heart of imperfections
teach me how to fly

a glimpse into exquisite beauty

only a fraction of a second
is allowed
when lightning illuminates the cloud
locked within the memory it stays
and glows on in a furious gorgeous blaze
 engraved upon the inner vision it shall speak
manifesting itself in what we seek

self evident truth

the afterglow of self evident truth
illuminate my way
grow brighter now
within my heart
 please stay

finding satisfaction within

wisdom has an appearance of joy
clarity in impact
when the target is hit

every line counts

in a long journey to completion
be not discouraged
every line has merit
there is a thought
behind each stroke
the more you realize this
 the easier your job becomes
you may have made the hit
in one fell swoop

greet the stars of early morniing

arise before the sun
set your sails
gather courage in the gale
 and move

subjective

 every artist conciously or unconsciously is searching
for the ultimate subject matter
in an aspiration to be its subject

surcharge my eyes with visions of You

storm across the blurry lines
illuinate the shadows now
with Your love divine

the end of the search

the beginning of the day
lift high
your sorrowed head
opportunities beg to see thee soon
and to them you must attend

selection-elimination

when you find what you are looking for
these are things that naturally occur
selection-elimination

get to know yourself

appearance of Jiva Goswami and Lord Vamanadeva

 Baladeva Vidyabushan's Govinda Basya
 pranam mantra to Jiva Goswami

 yah sankhya-pankena kutarka-pamsuna
vibartta-garttena cha luptadidhitim
staddham vyabhadhak-sudhaya mahesvaram
krsnam sa jivah prabhurastu me gatim



"He is the super-protector of our Sampradaya from other disturbances, then I bow down to his lotus feet." This way he wrote. He established Krishna, who is Paramesvara sat-chid-ananda vigraha, who is anadi, who is anadi adir whose name is Govinda, who is the cause of all causes. What was written in Brahma Samhita was established in this world by Jiva Goswami Prabhu.- Srila Govinda  Maharaj

buddhi yogam

means wake up
use your brains
stop sleep walking
particularily diet
ask- before you bite
ask inside - what is beneficial for me?

the grit of determination

fastfooted and surefooted
strong and sincere
attentive patient
all stay near
it is the hours to
seek devotion to the Lord

it is a never ending river

guide my vessel long the way
enter in my mind
 and clearly stay
north star
glowing
direction always give
carve into my ego
for Your pleasure
i may live

the glitz of the current 'stars' are not true starlight

its not my idea to be facetious
its not my idea to stay out all night
looking for answers in wrong places
when i know  they're not in sight

tell me later

or not at all
i live for life
not to fall
prey to lower modes
and such
lord help me stay within your look

cast a mystic spell upon this book
may the inner meaning be revealed
as you look

sympathetic dealings

with nature
the sage he did say
this is the method
to chase one's sorrow away
the web of life is closer than your breath
if you want love
chant  the holy names
at His behest
come closer to the source
and let all else rest

flash

flash that inspiration by me
memory intact
these supernatural forces
that guard for what we lack
such is the promise
of our infinite Divine
serve this path
leave nothing  of value behind

remember to remember something you wanted to remember

clue 1  :something you wanted to draw?

clue2   : something worth remembering?

clue3   : somethings for significant others you want to share with?
             (a marriage perhaps , as a catalyst?)

clue4 :   didn't you start painting something?

clue5:   did'nt you get a moleskine for some project?

p.s. don't worry, yes, i know you don't, because that might cause you some anxiety........but let me say this:
Focus is coming. From previous experience's loss, one can very safely say this is Grace from Above,( seeing what amperage you  work with).

clue6 :  Narada Rishi appeared in Sri Dwaraka Dham at the end of the rainy season.Like the sun glowing after the msoons he illuminated the sky.(see Nectar of Devotion  for a clear description).........Now fill in the blanks.

what was i going to say?

now that i am here
what did i want to tell myself
rmove away the fear
this life is all important
and if you find out why
you will treat it with royalty
for what we have been given is
our ticket that extends infinitely
blissfully cognizantly
a gem of priceless quality
ask the secret of how
this vast potential is released
that we can aquire something
of an eternally valuable treat

select a message

select a message
select a time
i''ll be there
stop on a dime.......

winning lotteries
 is not the same-

as the truth of a genuine guide
 whose  wisdom brings  us out
from this garish dream
connects us to a hidden stream


 when finally it is Truth we trace
misinterpretation
we can easily erase

days of Khan

we took mommy and Khan to the airport
talk about the cute people

block my path

so what are you saying?
this life that we live is truly amazing
stop me in my tracks to remember You
make me ever grateful
for everything You do

tell me 'bout the good things

they're piling up fast
i want to remember them all
i want them to last

everyday something good

send my eyes up to You
choose my direction
a path thats ever new

to maintain- to grow

only apparently alone are we
but hidden within a shelter we are encompassed
everywhere is the location of the Lord
all seeing all knowing and compassionate
Friend of the fallen
ever vigilant guardian
helping me realize my actual divine situation
ever merciful may i always remember Your
perfection of benevolent arrangements
may i awaken to how You are behind  everything

always

there is no day when i need not ask for protection

comfort in divine realization

how much mercy
is waiting , attempting to approach us
we need to throw away our small petty
ego based fears
there's a banquet of divine love
desperately gorgeously waiting
where our satisfaction knows no bounds

backwards and forwards

growing a new perspective
invert your asanas
and chant with sincerity and focus

today

stay strong
without vitality
nothing is accomplished

smal andl insignificant is the route

it need not be a grand campain it should however continue with various ideas that are expressed in sketch.How about a sketchbook?

the object is meditation on these eternal pastimes of the Lord

increasing awareness of a basic story line through meditation
regularly gives the depth perception that makes life worth living.
The action of drawing literally is pulling something into our plane of reality.

read about the holy dham the atmosphere of Vrindaban

put it into a visual log so that the backdrop can reflect some beauty

is there a goal or is it a daydream?

Certainly i've been sharing the story and that is good
drawing again is approaching........

send me those roses

I'm arriving at the gate
be there to meet me
don't be late
I've got a message for you today
remembrance of the Lord
removes any delay

characters from Fight with Banasura

Hero :Sri Krsna Lord Shiva
Ganesh
Kartikiya
Banasura
Lord Balarama
son of Krsna ,Pradumna
Yadu Dynasty
military

my backwards direction bears fruit

i am learning what its like
to be small
and not know much
of how to draw
its called :
starting over

image of Narada Muni:
He arrives at the end of the rainy season
butterflies flutter

thinking stage (be good to yourself)

got some newsprint
to preliminary think
my way around
and watercolor sheet
if some thought image has wings,
and....a new brush, mmm.

the pursuit is on!

get a whiff and follow the trail!

just remembering is something -hold on!

a yes , a drawing book, a sketch book, something every day
may it register inside and then you will find
., even today....a way
to stay current, make the break through
to the other side of
dreaming- which is manifesting
projecting
others call it creating
what is it?
some kind of journey
as one manifests ones vision
we also are altered

to go forth is not a cheap experience

much determination is necessary
even if others are unawarest of your commodity
at least take your own self seriously
what knowledge and grace the Lord bestows
is a treasure
guard it wisely
make your adjustment from the transcendental plane
and this material plane
is not as laborious
find beauty everyday
it is the sustainment from the Most Beautiful One
without it where is your life?

got tacks!

....and that was a meandering trip.Good thing i'm writing here to remind myself to continue.Yes, celebration is in order, to announce the continuity of thought to action., a formidable tool once developed.The first batch is on the board.Step 2) See them.See them far and see them close,see them.

the board of succession in time

Now, that i have one of those magic boards
that capture the sequence as an unfolding
of a tale, i need some very cool tacks to
hold my meaningful scribbles into place.

a short journey is necessary.This drawing is a depiction
of the twisted situation i'm unfolding in  the study
 of pictoral story telling.

the only real relief for an artist

is to draw,.....all the answers unfold
all the imagery grows
its all in the tip of your pen,pencil,brush
you know the stuff in your hands
that you translate your inside to your outsides

Graphic Novel

Today this word jumps out at me and stays in my throat.
i am looking over journalists, writers and teachers, but my movement
is  almost on par with stationary as in static rather than cards and envelopes.
it appears like a girdle of fear and impossibility.Am considering working with,again an imaginary person to partner up with.Also considering a nap.

storyboard

Yesterday,Sunday, Mother's day, i finally picked up the cork storyboard so i can think more visually.
Things from the temple are to be considered remnants of the Lord's paraphernalia. May the project grow. This morning the book of the war between Vritasura and King Indra came into my purview.Today is Dwadasi, that is holiday enough to warrant reading it.

attention

going to the temple..........

i would like to think i'm guided

rather than by my hit or miss mind
and insatiable desires
yes, i'm driven to attempt to
take the hari nam

DRAW DRAW DRAW

Now you've created chunks
others call them paragraphs and chapters
color them with intriguing clever answers
in visual context answer q uestions clear
avoid the cardinal sin of drear

the new pen!

perhaps, a little newnesss will encourage productivity
if it is tooo complicated , then a good sharp pencil
should never be abandoned

remember the timer for drawing 15 minutes of winning each day

how embarrasssing can it be
that more time was spent lamenting than creating?
urgency is the friend of success

holding on to the vision

find a spot that's undisturbed
create a focused environment
Resume meditation on the story

THE EYE

the eye to see
segments blocked in acording
to their sequenced volumn
and executed on paper
will be a delight in progress
of an idea
( THE VisIon)
the understanding of the plot movemnt visually by segment

planting seeds

how much hope hides
in tiny tiny gestures
give not in to futility
much ground work before
and much to come
be guided by your
inner vision
it is a key to happiness
at every moment

help from hidden places

thats what prayers and songs are for
to give praise to those on the other side
who watch over our dealings
and make them successful .

..........that is one of the secrets

did i say keep drawing?

the older one gets
the more quickly time
slips through the grip
of ones hand
a day turns into a year
in a breath
so,yes, keep drawing
develop[ your inner vision
see the action
with all its special effects
and to stay grounded
.....keep drawing
put haze where you want it
not only out of default
of a hazy conception
and,... that is also an excellent
working tool
the hazy coception ,that is
as the wisest have said
I'll work with my 5cents worth

taking ones own advise

now that is THE challenge
keep timing your drawings
keep drawing
....this is the secret,,,,,,

Focus

Yes, follow through on 15 minute drawings.....
choose conciously and time yourself
so you do't become a facsimile of your intention.
Thinking you are doing something as it becomes
scantier and scantier.

posting you a secret note

here is one you need
every day you must recall
one scene
take your pencil and lightly sketch
happiness will
b
your personal event

pick a scene now.......
hm,......
how about
Narada Muni watching Chitralekha attempt to fly into
the protected Sri Dwaraka Dham?

remember to remember why you are here

think about it often
along with all its fears
how they go away
when the Lord is near
joy is the ingredient
in every soup
ambroisal is the taste
if you stay in the loop

each action within the pastime is removing anartas

thus begins the arms severed off by the Lord's Sudarshan chakra

what is of value come forth

why is there doubt and thus inactivity
find the place where you can work these things out
on paper, in a ,read a passage and meditate with your pencil

paper means picture

so what shall it be?
get some air
and we shall see.

shiva dreams

as my Shiva dreams are not yet fructifying
i am putting some of my wishes into it
this way ,
thinking about it
as for a clear direct approach to yield itself.

sometimes loosening the reins brings your horsey nearer
welcome all the thoughts let them all get clearer
 shall i take a ride to the downtown action
or simply go outside and work in my own yard?

the enlightened see..

You present in every atom and through the via medium of Your external and marginal energies. Your unlimited potential  activities are experienced by the most enlightened devotees, but those who are bewildered by the spell of Your external energy identify themselves with  with this material world  and become attached to sociey, friendship and love. Thus they embrace the three fold miseries of material existance and are subjected to  the dualities  of pain and pleasure. They are sometimes drowned in the ocean of attachment and sometimes taken out of it.

Srimad Bhagavatam 10. 63. 34 ( line 3)

"My dear Lord, You are the object of the Vedic Hymns."

gudham brahmani van-maye

gudham - hidden; brahmani - in the Absolute; vak-maye - in its form of language .

the mystery hidden within the verbal manifestation of the Absolute.



Truth is a Person
Jiva Gosvami quotes Bhagavatam 7.10.48 gudham param brahma manushya-lingam
"the Supreme Truth concealed in a humanlike form."


sri-rudra uvaca
tvam hi brahma param jyotir
gudham brahmani van-maye
yam pasyanty amalatmana
akasam iva kevalam
SYNONYMS
sri-rudrah uvaca- Lord Siva said; tvam - You; hi- alone; brahma - the Absolute Truth; param- supreme; jyotih - light; gudham - hidden; brahmani - in the Absolute; vak-maye - in its form of language (the Vedas); yam - whom; pasyanti- they see; amala - spotless; atmanah - whose hearts; akasam- the sky; iva- like; kevalam - pure

continuation of Nabhaga (part 2)

Thereafter, while Nābhāga was accepting the riches, a black-looking person from the north came to him and said, "All the wealth from this sacrificial arena belongs to me."Nābhāga then said, "These riches belong to me. The great saintly persons have delivered them to me." When Nābhāga said this, the black-looking person replied, "Let us go to your father and ask him to settle our disagreement." In accordance with this, Nābhāga inquired from his father.The father of Nābhāga said: Whatever the great sages sacrificed in the arena of the Daksa-yajña, they offered to Lord Śiva as his share. Therefore, everything in the sacrificial arena certainly belongs to Lord Śiva.Thereupon, after offering obeisances to Lord Śiva, Nābhāga said: O worshipable lord, everything in this arena of sacrifice is yours. This is the assertion of my father. Now, with great respect, I bow my head before you, begging your mercy.Lord Śiva said: Whatever your father has said is the truth, and you also are speaking the same truth. Therefore, I, who know the Vedic mantras, shall explain transcendental knowledge to you .Lord Śiva said, "Now you may take all the wealth remaining from the sacrifice, for I give it to you." After saying this, Lord Śiva, who is most adherent to the religious principles, disappeared from that place.If one hears and chants or remembers this narration in the morning and evening with great attention, he certainly becomes learned, experienced in understanding the Vedic hymns, and expert in self-realization..

The Nabhaga situation part 1

Śukadeva Gosvāmī said: The son of Nabhaga named Nābhāga lived for a long time at the place of his spiritual master. Therefore, his brothers thought that he was not going to become a grhastha and would not return. Consequently, without providing a share for him, they divided the property of their father among themselves. When Nābhāga returned from the place of his spiritual master, they gave him their father as his share
Nābhāga inquired, "My dear brothers, what have you given to me as my share of our father's property?" His elder brothers answered, "We have kept our father as your share." But when Nābhāga went to his father and said, "My dear father, my elder brothers have given you as my share of property," the father replied, "My dear son, do not rely upon their cheating words. I am not your property."
Nābhāga's father said: All the descendants of Ańgirā are now going to perform a great sacrifice, but although they are very intelligent, on every sixth day they will be bewildered in performing sacrifice and will make mistakes in their daily duties.
Nābhāga's father continued: "Go to those great souls and describe two Vedic hymns pertaining to Vaiśvadeva. When the great sages have completed the sacrifice and are going to the heavenly planets, they will give you the remnants of the money they have received from the sacrifice. Therefore, go there immediately." Thus Nābhāga acted exactly according to the advice of his father, and the great sages of the Ańgirā dynasty gave him all their wealth and then went to the heavenly planets.

Blessing of Lord Shiva

Śrīmad Bhāgavatam 9.4.12

ya etat saḿsmaret prātah
sāyaḿ ca susamāhitah
kavir bhavati mantra-jño
gatim caiva tathātmanah

SYNONYMS
yah — anyone who; etat — about this incident; saḿsmaret — may remember; prātah — in the morning; sāyam ca — and in the evening; susamāhitah — with great attention; kavih — learned; bhavati— becomes; mantra-jñah — well aware of all Vedic mantras; gatim — the destination; ca — also; eva — indeed; tathā ātmanah — like that of the self-realized soul.

TRANSLATION
If one hears and chants or remembers this narration in the morning and evening with great attention, he certainly becomes learned, experienced in understanding the Vedic hymns, and expert in self-realization

Mantra-Drsah one who knows the science of mantra

Srimad Bhagavatam 9.4.10

yat te pitāvadad dharmaḿ
tvaḿ ca satyaḿ prabhāsase
dadāmi te mantra-drśo
jñānaḿ brahma sanā

SYNONYMS
yat — whatever; te — your; pitā — father; avadat — explained; dharmam— truth; tvam ca — you also; satyam — truth; prabhāsase — are speaking; dadāmi — I shall give; te — unto you; mantra-drśah — who know the science of mantra; jñānam — knowledge; brahma — transcendental; sanātanam — eternal.

TRANSLATION
Lord Śiva said: Whatever your father has said is the truth, and you also are speaking the same truth. Therefore, I, who know the Vedic mantras, shall explain transcendental knowledge to you.

line 1 of the prayer of Lord Shiva from Chpt. 28 Krsna Book- Bhaktivedanta Swami

Inaugurating his divine prayers of realization at the end of an immortalizing and spectacularly hair-raising battle, set in what is now current day Assam , the great Mahajan, Lord Shiva's first sentence begins with; " My dear Lord, You are the worshipable object of the Vedic hymns."

With the utterance of only the first line we begin to stumble into that holy domain of 'one drop of the infinite is infinite'.

In a small narration found in volume 9 of Bhagavatam, the great rajarishi Emperor Nabaga and his successor, his youngest son, also named Nabaga ,find themselves in a few unique turn of events that reveal the divinely helpful aspect of Lord Shiva in the jiva's search for wisdom.This narration indicates the powerful knowledge Lord Shiva is conversant with and substantiates His Mahajan stance of Bhagavat Dharma, and His mercy to assist the sincere seeker of Lord Krsna.

Nov.15 1983 B.R.Sridhar

The ability to access those lighning bolts of realization and redirect our outlook of reality, Srila Sridhar Dev here expresses that ' shiva state' of ironic conclusion, when he says,"Revive yourself from the tomb....buried under the earth.The earthly ideas have buried your soul within that and must come out of the burial ground.

Here resides some of the underpinings of Srila Sridhar Maharaja's immortal declaration, "Die to Live".

Lord of Maya

Lord Shiva, can show us how to become unfettered from this incarcerated plane, as he is the controller of the goddess of material energy, Maya.Her seva entails providing the all attractive glare of material involvement for the insincere jivas, like moths into light bulbs.Being the Lord and controller of Maya, he is not enamoured by the dazzle of material prospect and maintains His undeviated transcendental focus upon Lord Krishna, often even appearing covered with ashes upon His divine body in a state of indifference to this plane ,fully aware of the outcome of it's material ingredients, dust.Ashes to ashes and dust to dust.His holy form is actually golden,and not blue,which is the result of His ash covered body.Many pray to Him for vast material wealth,but for the devotee of Krishna, seeking lasting value, He provides infinitely deeper prospects and blessings for the path to enlightenment.